When I was in third grade I was friends with every person in my third grade class, I had two best friends: Kayshla and Jessenia, but I surrounded myself with as many people as I possibly could, I liked being a part of something small and selective, yet still being a small part of a larger picture.
When I was in eighth grade I decided I wanted to socialize more, expand my inner circle and welcome more people, I did, and it led to a debacle. I met the wrong people, interacted with the right ones, became involved with too many people and before I knew it my life had spun out of control. People I didnt know- knew who I was, who I was friends with and assumed they knew my entire life story. This continued into my freshman year in highschool, I made a lot of poor decisions, repressed who I was and became someone I didnt want to be.
I cut my friendslist, literally and metaphorically. I broke off the damaging relationship I was in and by the end of Sophomore year I was back on the road to who I used to be in third grade. Except as time went on, and the summer passed I subconsciously began eliminating more and more people off my friends list, not because I didn't like them, or value their friendship, but because I was growing in more ways than one. I changed a lot that summer.
Now mid-way through my Senior year in Highschool, I can count the people I trust in one hand, the people I dont in two and my overall group of friends in two as well. I chose this, and I want this.
