This is nonsense. I am walking, then I am running, I hide, then the tree that cared for me hid me, kept me, protected me, disintegrates so rapidly, I cant even catch my breath. Here I am, In and out, in and out, finally gasping. I hear whispers and I have no clue in which direction to look, Im scared I'll see you, I'm scared I wont.
Here I am, running and running, up and down these endless streets with no where to go, not anymore. Why do you leave? Come back and leave again? Why do you Zig Zag from one end of teh spectrum to another? Can you hear me? Do you understand? Where are you? I hate you.
I wish I hated you.
I wish this endless circle would somehow end. And my legs would give out, and my heart would break, that my shoes would wear out, that my soul would too. I want my strength to vanish, my wants to overpower my needs, but I never wanted you, I guess I didnt need you either.
For you I am indifferent. Did I ever tell you "I am dissapointed in you." ?
Im outta fucking control, running and screaming, shouting, but my soul is whispering words youve never heard. Listen closely, and believe: I dont know what to feel anymore. Im angry and Im sad. Im full of happiness because you are happy, and finally I am too. But you walked, you stepped and you left without a "Goodbye" or cleaning up the mess you helped create. I dont want to say "Goodbye my friend", I never did. But you forced me - Im not done yet.
Im still angry, never confused.
